06-26-2025
I need to be dedicated to discipline. I cannot ever fall like this ever again. I have 100 pounds to lose and I am going to lose it. The difference this time is I am going to master maintenance. I need to know how to keep it under control even when life gets difficult. I was looking at some old photos of myself and it really fired me up to look SOO GOOD again. So I am going to set some hard goals and time lines and stick to it. I don't know how it's going to play out with me likely changing jobs and working 40 hours a week up from 20 but I will make it work.
So the first hard goal is to work my ass off for the USAF 5K. IF I can I may even try to work up to being able to do a half marathon I still want to do that even though I keep failing and bouncing between like 300 and 320 lbs. So we will nail it down. As of today that is 12 weeks and 1 day or 85 days total. I've been training pretty hard this week despite knowing about the Dragon's 5k for months lmao. I am going to do the best I can for that race but the real goal will be training towards the USAF5k. I am 320lbs right now and I steadily lose 2.5 a week when I train and eat consistently.
That would be 30 pounds down when come race day. So thats going to be my conservative goal but I am also going to be attempting to go hard and include some Christian inspired Wednesday and Friday fasts. I want this weight back off and I want to look good again. I am doing it this year. I will try to calculate how much weight I will lose if I add the two fasting days. I guess instead of trying to calculate it I should jusst sack up and do it one week and see what kind of difference if any it makes. I will also be trying to be moving at all times and doing any kind of exercise that I can at all times. Just do some squats and push ups here and there, racking up huge numbers. I will be a super beast. I will finally achieve my final form.
Anotehr thought I had was to print some of these out and add them to a vision board or something. I believe I had started a digital vision board which I should continue. I just need something that I can see on a daily basis to cement why I need to do this work. Problem is I am broke as fuck and can't afford a dang ol shutterfly order. But I will make this happen no matter what. I will navigate all challenges that come my way and hit that goal.
Lookin so good.
The other thing I have to drive home is meal prep. I need to have my meals prepped every single day. I need there to be zero thought in the process of eating. I need to know exactly what and when I am eating to remove that from my brain entirely. I am going to try doing more crockpot meals towards this end.
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